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♫ Listening to: Atlantean Twilight - Kevin Macleod ♫
First – Cruelty
I can’t stop my tears falling from my eyes to cheeks. They keep falling as my heart begins to tighten itself, until it’s hard to breathe. Until my vision is blur.
Knowing the truth of all the lies that buried inside their mind. Knowing the fact that they hide it from me. I can’t breathe. It’s hard to breathe.
Knowing the truth of all the lies that buried inside their mind. Knowing the fact that they hide it from me. I can’t breathe. It’s hard to breathe.
The more I grow older the more I understand, the more I understand the more I got scared. I want to be like I used to be. A little girl with fragile feelings, when the only thing I knew is just smile. I want to be like that once more, -no- a billion much more. With all my selfish thought, I worried nothing. I didn’t even take a glance to the world. I let time passes me by as I walk like nothing happened. Not even a storm could stop my fragile foot from walking straight to what I want, to what I admire.
While all of them, crying about how hard is their love. I’m here alone, crying, pitying, thinking, and caring about the world, about the people living inside it. As I finally know what happen, when they finally pulled the strings that been tied on their mouth for this past 14 years. And I think that all of them who were crying about how sucks their love life is will get even more surprise and tensions as they began to open their eyes to the real world, to the world where all of their parents live, to the world where all of their parents fight against their selves.
I never thought that life would be so much in pain. Not on what it seems, but on what it feels. It’s much hurts than when you got your arm cutted. People only think about how their life will go, while I can’t stop thinking about what others might feel. And I thought “So that’s why my burden is much weighed than theirs.”
Whenever I see the things inside me, the tears that already dried up would come out again and again. Whenever I tried to search the dreams that I buried deep, something inside of me will all go raged and scream. And whenever I seek for the exit from this unknown feeling, the despair would go back and haunt me, forever life. I always tried to search for what I desired, for what I believe. But it seems I got none of them, I got nothing that I wished to be, nor that I wish to get. But I want someone brave, gentle, and strong, stand proud beside me. So I can take a glance whenever I’m feeling low. So that person will be my conviction. So I won’t feel lost when I’m at my very bottom.
I'm wondering and always wondered, “Is a person like that does exist in real life?”
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